It’s midway into 2018 and this is my first post this year. Yes, I was busy with my last semester at school, with graduation, with my social life, and so on. However, these would all just be excuses. To be honest, I have just been too lazy to write. Just like how most of us procrastinate with studying or with an assignment, I’ve been procrastinating updates on this blog. It’s much easier procrastinating when you don’t have a deadline or when there isn’t someone supervising. There are times when I’ve sat in front of my laptop, started writing a post, and suddenly feeling no desire to finish it. Sadly, I might have lost the inspiration and the passion to rant about any random thing that got me slightly irritated.
I started writing this blog because there are times when I need to rant on about something and there is nothing better to vent out something on than on a blank piece of paper. However, as I become older, I don’t have the urge to vent out as much. I’m not as affected by things as I used to be. As a teenager, I would have an extreme argument with anyone who would even hint the slightest sexist or racist remark. Over the years, I’ve toned it down. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or not. I don’t know if it means that I’m losing my integrity to fight or something that I believe in or if it just means that I’ve become older and more open to others’ opinions. Sure, it still bothers me when people don’t have the same outlook as I do, which I know is not fair. Yet, I don’t bother to say anything. It’s as though I’m too lazy to even try to change someone’s opinion because I know that it’s not going to change anyways.
I’m still trying to figure myself and the world out, as I’m sure everyone else is. I’m not sure whether my non-ranting self is a better version of myself or not. I’m not even sure if I have the inspiration to keep myself writing anymore. However, I feel a sense of accomplishment for having written my first post of 2018. Here’s to a rant about a non-ranting random rants with Pema.