As Bhutanese, the concept of karma is a big deal of our everyday lives. Growing up, I was taught that good always prevails and that good things happen to good people. I've always put an effort into things that I cared for because I truly believed that my efforts would not go unnoticed. I believed in the saying "you get what you give". That somehow made me believe that the world was fair. Of course, I knew of wars or innocent people dying, but in the back of my mind, I always believed that giving your best would pay off. Even when things weren't working out, I would tell myself that everything happened for the best and that everything would work out in the end.
However, as I become older, it's much harder to convince myself that the world is fair or that humanity exists. I have seen the best things happen to the worst people and I've seen the people who have worked asses off get nothing in return. Sure, maybe, it's a blessing in disguise. Maybe they could learn from their mistakes. There could be a positive side to every story but sometimes, it's disheartening to see the world be so unfair.
I have always been shy person and being social is not one of my strong suits. However, I never thought that it could get in the way of my school or career. My parents and teachers have always talked about studying or working hard and righteously in whatever I do but never about how people don't notice your hard work if you're quiet. I've noticed that someone who can talk their way into something whether it be school or life in general, is more noticeable than someone who is quietly doing their job. Of course, that isn't fair. But that's just the way the world works.
Even though I know how the world works, I still choose to live by my principles. I will forever choose to lead a righteous and moral life because that is the only way I can live with myself. I will never pretend to be someone I'm not to get ahead in life because even if it works, I will never be truly happy. I would rather live a life complaining about how unfair the world is whilst upholding my principles rather than a life where I get what I want but not the way I want it. People tell me that being true to yourself and doing the right thing certainly pays off in the end. This is getting harder and harder to believe. Nonetheless, even if I die tomorrow, I would be proud for holding on to my principles in a world where letting go of it is much easier.
Everything will be okay in the end, that's what I try to tell myself through every stressful moment. Everything does eventually turn out okay more times than not, but that isn't the end. There will be hundreds more of those situations that I have to go through. The universe is not like in the movies. Not everyone is going to live their lives to the fullest and most people will die before they realize what they were born for. Soulmates might not exist and even if they do, you may never find yours. You could live an incomplete life and leave before you're ready.
This is probably the most depressing public post I have written and it's a strange mix of motivation and depression. Most of us seem to rely on the universe to make things right because we assume that the universe will always make things right. Well, sometimes, you have got to let go of the belief of magic or the universe to go out and make a change. If you believe that something wrong is happening, make an effort to change it because the chances of the universe fixing it is quite low. Live a life that you believe is right and something to be proud of. For all you know, you could die right at this moment and it would be sad if you lived your only life on earth as being someone else other than yourself.